I stopped posting on here for a while, dropped down to 134 pounds and was so fucking close. Like, really, really close.
What happened to me? What happened to my control? I'm back where I was at the beginning of the summer. I can't even write the numbers down it makes me feel so disgusted with myself. I WAS SO CLOSE. And every day I try to get back on track and somehow I screw up. I was going to be a lifeguard for halloween... now I think I'll have to be a fucking beached whale. Ugh. Okay. Back on track today, updated for tomorrow:
under 150 calories. 2L of water. 3 cups of green tea.
breakfast: tea w/skim
lunch: salad... tomatoes, cucumber, lettuce, hb egg. w/hot sauce. maybe some tofu if I haven't been disgusting.
dinner: wait... what? no time for dinner?
And another thing. Perhaps... start a green tea diet. Each meal is green tea. And water. I think actually I'll do that tomorrow. So tired. I feel so fucking disgusting. I want classes to be cancelled so I can sleep and work out all the time.
