Today. Ew. Exercised like mad last night after I bombed the italian final (great stress relief), but nothing to show for it :/ today haven't eaten, got coffee with a friend and drank two mugs of green tea and some water. I'll probably get some veggies at lunch with my friend so I have energy for the gym. This weight needs to come off. Frankly, it's atrocious that I let myself go this far. Ew. Nobody wants to date Bubba the Whale.

edit: after lunch I felt so disgusting. I tried to purge for the first time ever, completely unsuccessful... why can't I make anything come up?? I guess it's good that I can't do it, I'd probably fuck myself up even more. I feel more pure when I don't eat, purging would lead to unnecessary binges probably. Ugh. Two hours at the gym. At LEAST 500-600 cal burned.