by fasting for a two and a half weeks, someone lost 20 pounds. By restricting under 500 w/out exercise, someone lost 20 pounds. So if I restrict under 5oo and exercise, significant weight should come off in a few weeks. 

Fuck. I want to lose at least five pounds by christmas. We leave xmas eve and I won't have a scale with me, so I want to make SURE I come back lighter after vacation, just in time for new years. That means some serious restricting, even without the scale as motivation. I know I can do it. I have to have to have to. 

I'm going to do it so that when J finally sees me again after break, I'll be breathtaking. I want him to want me. And I want my ex to regret everything he's done to me. Right now my heart is shattered and he has no clue, but he will. And he'll be sorry he ever messed things up when he sees the new, beautiful me.