I've realized what I want from losing weight. Attention. I want attention from guys, who want me because I have a sexy, beautiful body. I want attention from girls who wish they looked like I did. I want attention from my friends, a mix of awe at the new me and concern for how much weight I've lost. I want my anorexic friend to ask me if I'm okay. I want the girls in my house to try and find ways to make me eat. I want to be the center of attention. God.

I'm such an attention whore.