Two weeks of traveling every setting of the upper east coast: New York City, suburban Connecticut, Adirondacks, and then Mt. Ketadin in Maine (no service for MILES). I loved everything, from crowded but awesome NYC to mountain-climbing in Maine. Am I a city or country girl? Mmmm, probs both.
Anyway, I ended up doing absolutely no damage-- I sort of watched what I ate, but not really. While I was in the city I barely ate, which helped me. One day I ate a carton of blueberries for lunch, and some chips with my margaritas for dinner; I most likely drank more calories than I ate there hehe. Connecticut/my cabin was probably the worst in terms of eating, but oh well. And the 11-hour climb up and over Mt. Ketadin was certainly a calorie-burner, and all I ate on that was an apple, almonds, and a Cliff Bar (which is 240 calories, not to be eaten unless actually climbing a mountain). Afterwards there was a little steak, but not much. Aaand that's pretty much it!
I started running again yesterday, and took the kids for a bike ride today (probably a little under 6 miles, and I was pulling one of them in the carriage behind me. lucky duck). I snacked a little too much when I got home though, and I hope my friend calls before dinner so I can run out and not eat. The veggie tonight is cauliflower, which I find disgusting, so I don't even want to fill up on that.
Maybe we can go swimming and I'll do subtle laps.
I'm having emotional distress over my two men. I've distanced myself from my boyfriend without even realizing I'm doing it. I think he's confused, and starting to catch on, and I don't want to hurt him any more than I have to... I don't know. So complicated. And P. stopped texting me a while ago. We talked for a bit on Independance Day, but I don't always want to be the one bothering him. And now I'm starting to wonder what will happen if I break up with my boyfriend and it's all for nothing. Gahhhh. I'm no good at this two-men business. I constantly feel guilty about everything I do, for absolutely good reason-- I shouldn't be doing this. I shouldn't be doing this. Why am I? Because I am an idiot who falls way too hard, over everyone.
That feels a tiny bit better writing it out.
A tiny, teensy bit.
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