151.5

I am stranded alone at my house. Family went to the cabin, boyfriend and best friend went to the beach, other friends went to the lake in NY. Even my dog is gone. I got invites to all but had to stay home because I babysit again Monday. Now-- part of this is extremely depressing/lonely, but part is also GREAT. I can eat whatever I want (very little), do whatever I want (wine in the bathtub last night) and go wherever I want (I live in the middle of nowhere. Nevermind).

Hahaha how sad is that? Originally I planned to fast all three days, but I've been binge-free for a long time and I don't know what fasting will do to my willpower in that arena. Yesterday I ate a few almonds and a bit of some toast my mom made me before she left, and then I made the most delicious stuffed pepper for dinner EVER. It was seriously bomb. Of course I omitted the cheese, and put in half the amount of brown rice, but it was so freaking good. And under 200 calories! FOR DINNER! Benefits of being home alone, eating whatever I want. And look at that up there! The scale does not lie. :)

Ugh. Then sometimes I think about the actual number instead of what I've lost, and I absolutely still cringe. fatfatfatfatfatfatttfatfat