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A lot has happened since my last post! I am doing so much better mentally now-- no more restrictive starve/binge cycles for me. I have become obsessed with health. Healthy food, healthy mindset, healthy (skinny) body. I signed up to run a half-marathon in ten weeks, which will definitely kick my butt into skinny shape in no time.

I've continued to make myself eat a healthy breakfast under 200 calories, which is improving my mood swings and making me a much happier person. I eat a light lunch and try to stay under 200 calories there too, and then I let myself have one or two low-calorie snacks (fat-free greek yogurt, a piece of fruit, a hardboiled egg... you get the idea). And then a light version of whatever we're having for dinner. My only issue is that I still get a little binge-y at night-- old habits die hard.

So here's my plan. From now until the marathon, I will not binge at night. A small snack is fine if I'm working and hungry, but it must be carefully planned out like my daytime snacks. NO MINDLESS MUNCHING.

If I stick to that, I will be skinnyminny by the time October rolls around. I'm not worried about falling off my running schedule, because I have an incredible fear of being the last one to come wheezing and dying across the finish line.

Oh. I guess I should mention the beach a few weeks ago.I got inappropriately drunk, fell out of a lifeguard chair, probably flashed everyone my panties... whoops. Embarrassing. But I managed to maintain my weight, which means I did not pig out as disgustingly as I could have.